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Rohini Chowdhury's avatar

Hi Jan, I’m glad you wrote this. To be honest, I was very confused about why you felt so terrible about the other Substack post from Womaning in India being accidentally shared. I actually thought it was a good thing that it reached so many more people. ❤️

As a woman, and a mother of two girls, I have always walked in fear. The streets are not safe, the darkness is terrifying, lonely places are frightening but so are crowds. My girls, growing up, used to rail against my caution - text me when you leave school, text me when you get the bus, text me when you reach your friend’s house, don’t walk home alone at night...and so on. Today they agree and understand the need for it, and even though we are a continent apart, they let me know - we’re out tonight, we’re home safely again.

It should not be like this. Mothers and daughters should be able to sleep in peace without such worry. But it has always been so, and I don’t see it changing anytime soon.

You spoke of immigrants. I have lived in the U.K. now for 26 years. I know more about this country’s literature and history, folklore and customs, than most ‘native’ English. But I also know I will never be accepted as belonging here, no matter what. Only yesterday I was told by a woman who invited herself over to my house that I couldn’t possibly understand the Holocaust because I was not ‘from here’. She then went on to tell me how upset she gets when people tell her that British colonialism was bad because after all, her grandfather was a District Commissioner in pre-independent India and he ‘loved’ India. I am sure he did, all slave owners love their exploitative lifestyles. She took my breath away with her assumptions. She was in her 70s and rather frail, so out of respect for her age I did not argue. Another woman, also while sitting on my sofa, wondered at the ‘mispronounciation’ of Sanskrit words by Indians. She knew better of course, simply by virtue of being English. It makes me angry, and it makes me feel unsafe, insecure in a country I have lived in for 26 years. But these are the attitudes here that I run into so casually. So is it any wonder I still can’t call this country home?

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Julia Bedell's avatar

Dragonflies know what's up

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